Good Vibes!

I finally felt like I fit in today!  I was really impressed with the girls I met last week that werent really 'my type', they remembered my sons name, and I am glad I gave them a second chance.  They encouraged him and cheered for him as he played.  They acted as if they knew him for months.  And there wasnt any competition today..To be honest the 'main one' who competed last week was pretty quiet so maybe she is the ring leader?  Hopefully she was having a bad week last week and today was how she really is.  I liked her much better today, and my son LOVES this woman!!  He was holding her hand dragging her around it was so sweet and he feels so comfortable with her, wasnt such a fan of the other one from last week though.  She reached her arms out to pick him up and he snubbed her LOL.  I always wonder if kids can sense good vibes n bad vibes?    

I finally connected with a mom on so many levels.  We didnt share too many details about ourselves (so she doesnt know 'my story'), but we shared alot of how we parent and it was really refreshing.  I didnt feel like the odd ball out.  When she said "We are both police officers.  I work the night shifts and I am home before he wakes up and with him all day.  Its really nice to be able to spend the day with him and eat dinner as a family.  I prefer the night shift.  I sacrifice sleep so that I can spend as much time with him as possible."<---Literally quoting how she said it.  My jaw dropped.  I told her, "Wow you are the 1st person I have met to say they dont care if they lose sleep for their kids" (non-blm).  She smiled.  I think she felt the same about me.  She and I related on so many things!  She didnt look at me like I had 50 heads for wanting my son to eat healthy.  In fact, that is how her son eats too!!  She didnt look at me strange when I said I had never heard of "open play" before, and she even offered some other activities that we may be interested in around our neighborhood.  She was so helpful, without that condescending tone you sometimes come across from BTDT moms.  Wish more moms (non blm) were like this.  

Her son loves sports too, he is only 1 month older than my son and can also play basketball and baseball already, just like mine.  He is polite and friendly.  He knows how to share.  They played 'catch' with the balloons.  It was really nice and it was even nicer to see my son making friends.

Although my boy was really staying to himself most of the time today, which is unlike him.  All he wanted to do was go down the slides and climb, which was fine.  He doesnt need to be interactive with everyone all the time. We laughed for 2 hours straight, and I was even surprised at how fast the time went today!!  What a great day and what great memories made together!  It was so much fun my son cried when we left.  It was so funny because he usually just blows a kiss and says "bye bye" without any issues when we leave somewhere, even the grocery store!  He was throwing himself from my arms, crying, saying "no no mommy!! pay(play)!!"  

I cant say enough good things about this experience today.  Im so glad I didnt get discouraged from last week.  I didnt have to be a "BLM" today.  I was a mom and they respected that.  I even felt comfortable enough to ask for some parenting tips!!  Thats big for me, because I dont really trust anyone.  

All good things right?  Well there were a few moments where I just had to change the subject very nonchalant.  There was talk about "the next one" and "their older one" and today...for ONE TIME..I didnt want to get in that conversation.  Does that make me bad?  I didnt want to be the BLM, I didnt want to be the girl struggling TTC, I didnt want to be the one who was "done having kids because her body is done"  TODAY..I just wanted to be a mom at a play group with her son.  I feel guilty for that, but its draining and I really need a mental break from my reality sometimes.